Sunday, July 06, 2003

Channel Surfing
Was surfing through the channels just now when i heard this,
"Over concern for someone will only causes him/her unduly amount of stress. You'll stifle him and rid him of his own space and he'll just grow dreary AND weary of you. You're making him lead your life. Are you so selfish in your love? Do you love him or do you want to own him"
(some impact of the speech might have been lost in my translation from mandarin to english)

Hmmm i was stumped after hearing that. It sounds so personal. Where do we draw the line between concern and control? It's not easy, never has been. Especially when you care so much for a person that you fear that the worst possible things are just waiting to happen to them around every corner. Worse, that person does know you care so much. Some times you can't help it. You tell yourself not to put so much of yourself into it but the concern just wells up at the snap of a finger, it's almost like second nature already. Tragedy of all tragedy, you can't tell her that you feel so, though both of you know that you feel so.
Just that because you've never told her explicitly you feel so, both pretend that each other don't know you feel so and pretend nothing's happened. Confusing huh? That's wat i am.... Confused.

Love and be silent? or Love and be heard?

I have always believed in love and be silent... but it's so draining... you gave so much to another left so little for yourself. Will you have anymore to give another? Yet you keep giving cause you know it's real. How do you know? Cause you keep giving even though you are aware it's getting nowhere. You can't help it even though you know only you know.

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