Death

Death doesn’t solve any problems. Suicide is an irresponsible way to go.

I’m sure all of you out there have heard of the above-mentioned statements. They’re true, every lil bit of them. Why then is suicide so appealing? Especially to the desperate and troubled.

Simple, like what’s written, death doesn’t bring an end to your problems. It just fucking make them other’s. A stiff drink, a large step off a ledge and bye bye world. Somebody else will have to take over and worry about your problems IN ADDITION to his own. But, who cares? You’ve pulled yourself out of the picture. Forever.

Heck, you don’t even have to clean up after yourself. Someone else will have to scrape your remains off the sidewalk.

Hey! I did say it was irresponsible didn’t I?

Yin And Yang
Was sitting up in bed staring at the ceiling when this popped into my head.
Yin is often associated with the subtle, the low down and the chilly. Yang on the other hand, is associated with the blatant, the high profile and the passionate.

Which way of going is more painful? The yin or the yang? Does it hurt more to be burnt to death or to be frozen alive?

Combustion, the ultimate yang. I’m sure we all have been burnt before sometime in our life. Be it by hot water, the iron or even by the sun. Remember how your whole hand jerk away from the hot kettle, that instantaneous, instinctive flick that took barely some nano-seconds to remove your hand away from the heat? Remember how your skin felt so raw and sensitive when the sun burns you? Remember that perpetual tingling; prickly feeling that seems to take forever to go away?

Now can you imagine how will it feel like to be burnt alive? The jerking away part, which I mentioned? Well, wouldn’t it result in your whole body convulsing and twitching involuntarily? The pain would be everywhere as the flames lick your entire body. It’s like sledge hammers pounding down on every single nerve endings in your body. The pain, which starts locally, will soon grow and merge into one huge experience as the flames engulf you. You wouldn’t be able to identify which part of your body is going up in flames, all that you can feel is the pain as you turn into one huge human blister/boil. The pain that the flames bring and the pain that comes as dried up tissues crack and tear apart as your body twitch and convulse violently, will it grow? Is there such a thing as a “small” pain or a “huge” pain? Will it just keep growing until you pass out? Or in this case die. Is it true that your life flashes pass your eyes before you die? Will it happen in this case? Or will the pain just be so traumatic that you wish the end would come faster?

Will the pain go away as your skin and nerves burn away, or will the pain be etched in your brain so that the only and last thing that you remember from living is the pain that life brings?

Now for the yin, how will it be like to freeze to death? Shouldn’t be that painful right? Considering how low temperature numbs everything and shut our body down slowly. The only source of pain I can think of comes from breathing. Fancy that! The only thing can keep us alive normally will cause us so much pain when we freeze. Every one knows that our lungs are made up of fibrous sacs that have lots of little vessels and veins to transport exchange air in and out of our system. Can you imagine the water vapor in our lungs freezing? The ice particles and slush that would have formed inside as a result? Imagine… with each laborious heave of our lungs to breathe, the ice will be cutting into our lungs; the sacs would have burst releasing more blood and fluid to be frozen. Imagine breathing with so much slush and ice inside. The cold temperature will tear the lungs as it heave in and out. Frozen tissue will be forced apart as our lungs expand and contract. Ice will be cutting into the walls and lining. Would be so agonizing as the lungs collapse into a bloody, bruised mass of tissue.

Before you know it, you’ll be drowning and choking in your own blood.