Red and White Delight

I am… sucking furiously on a candy cane. *Bliss*

I am… listening to Stacie Oricco.

Haiz. Guess what? I managed to get the second last star buy at Creative! Did a uber kiasu act last night. Went to queue at eight when the sale was eleven THIS morning. Anyway, it’s all worth it. Got it at $199, which is like $198 cheaper. Cool right? So I’m now the proud owner of a Creative Muvo NX. Took part in a lucky draw after the sale. Won a pair of headphones. Man, I’m lucky!

Ah Christmas is coming! What joy! Feels happier already thinking of the festive period ahead.

Relieved

Funny as it sounds, but I was expecting worse.

Disco Dancing

Finally passed YS Bala's number. Hope they can work out some plans for the parties. Hope Bala doesn't screw it up, wouldn't want someone else after my blood would I?

Vision

I see a storm brewing...

Buy Buy Buy

People who say money can’t buy happiness just don’t know where to shop…

Hectic…

Had a damn bestest weekend! Did so much! Went out with so many people! Let’s see… Friday! Friday I took half day off so that I could go to the Busker’s Festival at night. Haha, met up with Yushan and her friend, Zena. (Sorry, can only remember his nickname). Waited around a bit for Sam, she was a lil late. Anyway, the busker festival? It was alright only… The first one we saw? He was quite bad actually. Now the SECOND one was a totally different story. He was balding, he was friendly and he was funny! Hahaha guess the fact that he knows a little mandarin helps him with the crowd. Oh and his funky purple leotard! Haha He was good! Went on to Taka square too. Saw Tweety bird, Hello kitty and Barbie dancing to Twist and Shout by The Beatles. Kind of sick if you ask me. Imagine, we were there for the Busker Festival, ended up watching some people in animal suits. Hahaha.

Yea, had dinner at BK. Wanted to bring them to Dan Ryans, we walked there, but something unhappy and highly unnecessary happened. Basically, when we walked in, some Caucasians said hi to Sam and Yushan. Zena then held us back and we eventually left the place.

Not before he said, “Sorry, we are not coming in anymore. I don’t want any harassment suits.”

WAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ABOUT MAN?!?!?

Which century do you live in? what? You can’t socialize with Caucasians? Which mountain do you live on? Never went to a pub or bar have you? That was freakin uncalled for man. Can’t you just walk away? What was the last sentence for? Hey! People like me hang out there man… how the fuck do you expect me to show my face there again? Sheesh man. For Pete’s sake!

That aside, we left the place (rather unhappily I must add). Guess my face was rather black and pissed cause Zena tried to explain his stand. I can (grudgingly) see where he’s coming from but he was doing such a bad job of it that some “comments” about Caucasians came up. Trust me, if Sheila was there, she would have slapped his teeth out. AND I would have helped her. Really was teetering on the edge of exploding. Thank God I’m sane enough to tell myself it’s not very nice to beat up someone you’ve met for the very first time. In front of two ladies too.

Seriously, he already gave me a reason/reasons to… I just needed an excuse to and I’ll.

Headed to Guthrie House at Sixth Avenue for ice cream. Rather good ice cream I must add! Bought some home for mommy, perfect excuse to take a cab. God bless his soul should I have to take the bus with him all the way back to Jurong.

The evening was rather cool if not for his occasional attempts and remarks trying to link Yushan and me together. *rolls eyes* Notice it’s always other people making such remarks and ME who’s getting blamed for trying to use someone to get close to Yushan. Notice that I asked Sam to go prawning with me, and it’s HER who asked for HER friends to tag along. Notice I wasn’t expecting any other company and I didn’t pressure/force/coerce/hoax/con/threaten her into bringing friends along. Notice that it takes two to clap, I can’t talk to her for long if she has nothing to talk to me about. Notice that I actually took leave to spend the day with Sam. Have you no idea how hard it is to earn a day of leave? How many weekends I have to burn? How much shit work I have to do? How hard I have to grovel at my superior feet so that he could release me for the day? How much work will pile up for me the next day in my severely understaffed workplace?

Notice that I got slapped around a bit and got maligned for something that I wasn’t guilty of.

Now that’s something I can’t stand. Despite Sheila telling me online to relax and let it pass, I couldn’t. Despite Yifang and Ming who met up with me on Sat telling me to be forgiving like how a guy should be, and forget the issue, I couldn’t. Despite the chidings that Christine gave me today to forgive and forget, I couldn’t.

Not my fault that being maligned is one of my pet peeve.

“I hope you won’t use me to get close to Yushan like how you did with Christine….”

Can you believe that came out of her mouth? It sure was hurtful. Suddenly, all the fun stuff we did over the two years came back. And it was wrenching to think that for two years, all the times that I was sincerely concerned for her, they were viewed by her as that I have an ulterior motive behind my actions. So for two years, all the while, which I’ve chosen to see her as a friend, she has chosen to view me as a manipulative fiend who’s just using her.

I felt like crying there and then. But I didn’t. Maybe I should because I’m sorry….. Sorry that you couldn’t see beyond… Sorry you can’t accept that people are genuinely nice to you… Sorry that you are so untrusting and that you have to live this life constantly trying to second-guess others.

Our friendship will never be the same again, the damage has been done. Suddenly, my attempt at trying to explain myself that day seemed so foolish. Foolish enough to invite a

“That’s how I perceived it. There’s nothing you can do to change it…”

kind of reply out from you. How easily you shrugged it off. Does this friendship really mean nothing to you?

It’s like…. Why bother ?

Sim Lim Squares

Felt like a square walking around Sim Lim with Fang and Ming on Saturday. I’m no techno geek, hence I felt so overwhelmed and out of place. Went to look for mp3 players. So many there, but we still settled for Creative. So Creative warehouse sale? Here we come! Hahaha Ming left earlier to catch the rugby finals at home. So glad England won! Fang and I walked around bugis a little. Had lotsa food that day!

Towning With Peanut

Went out with Christine today. Her classmate’s bday’s coming up. So needed a guy’s views on some stuff. Hope I was of some help. Hahaha. She ended up buying two t-shirts from Topshop. Haha. Now I know what I’m going to get for myself next month! A sling bag from Project Blood Bros and a rusty looking t-shirt from Topman.

Haha Christ is a hardcore shopperholic man. She HAS to get stuff when she’s out. Bought two books for herself! Walked around Zara too. She was so disappointed that her fave skirt doesn’t have her size. You should have seen her sad face. Girls! Haha She gets excited shopping so much so she doesn’t look where she’s going. At timberland, she almost fell face flat into the rocks on the floor. Had to hold her back. Come to think of it. Been holding people back quite a bit. Held Sam back from on coming traffic on Friday (Though she most prob think my “ulterior” motive is just trying to get fresh or something). *shrug*

Sat over waffles and talked. About CS, about uni, about the current impasse with Sam, about boys, about girls. Haha.

Guess what she got me behind my back? Candy Cane! Ohmigosh! I was so shocked and elated! Hahaha super unexpected. Was grinning from ear to ear. Hahaha. I’m so useless, one candy cane was all it takes for her to “con” a “dark” secret out of me. Sssshhh! Don’t spread!

Little Critters In A Pond Of Emerald

Yea. Went prawning the other day with Sam and her friend Yushan. Real small world. She was from RVHS too and she knows some of the people I do. Hahhaha talk abt coincidence, she was standing beside me the whole time I was waiting for Sam at the theater. (We caught the Matrix before that.) Like I mentioned. The movie was excellent, headed to the prawning pool after that. It’s located at some god-forsaken Chinese Garden Road. Hahaha

Spent three hours there. Kind of overkill if you ask me. Anyway, SO MANY PRAWNS GOT AWAY!!! Man, at least a good ten of them! *Growls* We had fun; nothing beats the thrill of having one of em tugging at the end of the rod, struggling for their life. Nothing can beat the joy of lifting them out of the water. Nothing can beat the stench on your fingers after handling the cockles (bait) too. Haha. Sam had to suggest KFC (Finger licking good or finger licking toxicity in this case) for dinner. *In a low voice* I think she’s trying to poison me. Muahahahahha

Talked quite a bit with Yushan. She’s so friendly! Anyway, she suggested that the three of us go to the Busker’s Fest together.

Busker’s Fest

Yup, We’ll most prob be heading down this Friday! Yay! Can’t wait. Hope it’s still on.

June and Yushan

Hee. No scandalous thoughts now… Hahaha why is this entry about them? Just read on….

Met up with June the other day for dinner. Haha so nice of here to come down to West Mall when she lives near town. Sorry hon, will make it up to you another time. Anyway, she still looks the same, fair, rosy cheeks and all. Hahaha oh, and her SMILE! Those mesmerizing pearly whites of hers. And the smile that she so readily flashes at people. Hmmm… those cheered me up a great deal that day. so lucky to have known her.

Hee, there’s something about Yushan. I admit to staring at her several times during dinner. Think it’s her chirpiness and friendliness. After enlistment, it has been a very long while since I came across so much fizz and energy. Somehow, in a way, it’s rather refreshing hanging out with her. You know, refreshing like when a gush of cold biting wind blows on you. The feeling of life and energy flowing and biting and rattling into your every muscles and bones? Yet, what lingers isn’t chilliness, instead it’s warmth. Warmth that lingers slowly before ebbing away.

Addictive warmth.

Crikey

A wave of bull courage swept over me at the witching hour of near midnight yesterday. I asked her out for the weekend.

She had plans already. :(

Apologies

Sorry for the long hiatus, the mood just wasn’t there you see. I’m sure you lovelies will understand. Anyway, I’m back!

Matrix

I think it’s just over blown. Really! All those profound theory? I think it’s just bull. Because the amount of details that goes into it, it’s just too much! I mean all those explanation, surely they didn’t mean for it all to click like it did. I think it’s all one huge coincidence, that’s all. The producers just wanted to make an action flick, viewers read too much into it. Period.

Anyway, the third installment of the matrix? It’s absolutely, gorily, bloodily, violently delicious! Fantastic! (Though the ending fight scene was rather flat, feels like Dragonball) The part I love most? The intense fight at Zion. With all the AP (Armour piercing) units and all. The part was so fast paced, thrilling, bloody and intense. So much so that when they detonate the EMP charge and all the sentinels died, I can feel the tension flowing out of my body. It seems almost as though I’ve forgotten to breathe during the entire battle. Pheeew. You peeps have really got to see it for urself man. I love those AP units; think they’re the most beautiful proponents of Deaths I’ve ever seen. Think I’m gonna buy the trilogy box when they release it.

Shooting Kids

I’m a changed man. I used to be the kind that will pick up kids that I dunno and play with them. You know, kids that run to ur table at Macs? Kids chasing after run away toys in a departmental stall? Kids playing hide and seek in malls? I’ll pick them up without hesitation and play with them. Guess I’ve always liked kids. Yup, the word is “LIKED” spelt with a D.

I have no idea when it started. But they seem to get on my nerve damn easily these days. That day out with Sheila? We were at Taka riding on the escalator when a kid started wailing out of nowhere. Guess what shot out of my mouth?

“Somebody please shoot that kid.”

I can’t believe I said that. Neither can the people on the escalator. What’s gotten over me?

Shuhui

It’s rather long ago when I met Shuhui by chance at JP. Was shopping on my own when she saw me and asked me over to join her. She was disturbed after reading my blog. Said something like “Are you ok? I read your blog…” we were sitting together talking when she went into a lengthy explanation/speculation abt why I’m feeling the way I have been. To tell you the truth, I switched off totally. All I remember was that a voice was screaming inside of me ranting on about how “You are so full of yourself! Who the hell do you think you are? You think you know me eh? You think you know why I’m feeling the way I am eh? You think you know me enough to tell me you understand how I feel? You don’t understand shit!”

That was how I felt at that moment. Looking back, I’m appalled and shocked. Appalled I felt likewise towards someone who’s trying to help. Shocked that such irrational waves of violent thoughts actually flitted across my mind. I’m sorry ok Sam? Thanks for caring. *Hugs*

Sandra

I love my sister. Really I do. She’s just so marvelous. Musically talented. Good kid, good grades. Helps a lot that she’s so pretty too. *Grins* Mature and kiddy at the same time. Simply adorable.

Many people (esp. guys) will like her for different reasons. Maybe she’s so likeable because she seems so small, so vulnerable and in need of protection. Let me tell you, those punk heads can’t be more wrong. Sandra can survive in any situation you can throw at her. She can take perfect care of herself. Damn resourceful and quick thinking. That’s why she’s always pissed and annoyed at guys who tries to hit on her and treat her like a kid. She just isn’t one!

She always knows what to say at the right time and what should be said or unsaid. She’s the one who taught me the importance of being tactful. I have grown from someone who shoots my mouth off without consideration, some one who talks before thinking to someone who’s learned to be more restrained. And this is only one of the many lessons that I’ve gained ever since I’ve known her. I am so glad and grateful to the Highest Being (whoever/whichever it may be.) that I’ve had the chance to have a lovely sister like Sandra.

We nicknamed her Bear. Coincidently, that is so apt for her. Like a bear, Sandra is big. No! Not in the physical sense, on the contrary, she is rather petite. Instead, I refer to her heart. Her heart is huge and accommodating. Words seem to do injustice to her. Maybe, just maybe, she is really a little angel slotted into my life by the Big Guy up there. I just know, I am all so grateful that she has come into my life.

Many unhappy things have happened to me, and yet, good stuff happens too, to make my life more enriched and fulfilling. Maybe it really is in His grace that I should repeat a year in junior college, just so I can meet this angel of a sister.

She makes this wreck of a life more bearable.

Why I like hanging with Lalala

Very simple really. She’s interesting. To be precise, her life is (though she’ll beg to differ). This woman has so much happening to her at any one time. Recently, it’s last min shopping for her new boyfriend. Hahaha. You should see her face as she racked her brain trying to recall significant details about her date with Him. Hahaha she was trying to put together some stuff for their one-month anniversary.

Sometimes, I feel like a leech when I’m out with her. It’s the selfish side of me who enjoys being involved in her life. Somehow, I’m living another life through her. Take this instance for example. Going around town thinking hard and searching even harder for pressies, somehow, it makes me feel as though I’m the one shopping for my girlfriend. It’s like I feed off her life experiences and make them somewhat mine. Without actually going through them myself.

I am like… a pathetic parasite that survives on others. A miserable little worm who has no life. I disgust myself sometimes.

Worms should be trodden into the cold earth. That’s where they belong.

Outing with Lalala

Celebrated Sheila’s birthday on Sunday. Guess what? I got her a manicure at Hollywood Secrets, after that, had lunch at Dan Ryan’s. Haiz. Hate that woman sometime… the surprise was pretty much under wraps until she somehow guessed it. Growls. Hate the way that char bor can second-guess me sometime. Nonetheless, she was still surprised. Hahaha too bad she trimmed her nail before that. So couldn’t get her a French manicure, had to settle for a normal one.

Sheila can be such a klutz sometime. Couldn’t keep her hands still. Barely seconds after the manicure, one of her finger had an “accident”. The lady had to redo her nail. Hahaha. Was so worried for her “articulate” fingers, we could easily be stuck there for the whole day man.

Walked to Dan Ryan’s after the manicure. Love that place. Been there at least four times already. We shared a Chili Cheese Fries; she had Club Sandwich and orange juice. Me? Philly Cheese Steak Sandwich and ice tea. The ice tea there is great, not the usual season’s or Lipton kind of crap. Freshly brewed! Yum! Hahaha. Conspired with the waiter on my way to the washroom, got him to put something together for her. He got her a small choc cake complete with candle. You should see her face man. Grins. Too bad the choir wasn’t around. Anyway, the manager took a photo for us with the digicam. Yup, they’ve upgraded. Used to use the old Polaroid. They will email her the photo when it’s ready. Will post it up on my photo page when she forwards it to me.

Pretty much walked around town after that. She tried on some tops but they looked kinda funny with her bloated stomach. Hahahaha. They’re not kiddin when they say Dan Ryan’s serve American portion. Anyway, she bought a black, flora-print, off shoulder top, which I think looks great on her. Damn sexy! Hahaha. (Now, who dares to say that I’m mean to people on their birthdays?)

Plans

Damn late. Here's a small reminder of what I've to write abt soon.

1)Outing with Lalala
2)Why I like going out with Lalala
3)Sandra dearest
4)Matrix
5)Shooting kids
6)Shuhui