Just Great.

Between Sheila and me, I’m now officially known as THE weirdo. She read the April 25th post and told me that my thinking is getting really different and weird. Shrugs. But at least she still feels that I’m harmless. Hahaha. Thanks Persephone. That means a lot. Think it was the Humpty Dumpty post that pushed her over…

Hurray For Sunday.

Going to the Lord Of The Ring exhibition with Miss Chew. *Waves porcupine around* Happy, fun loving, cool, spunky Christine is finally back. Gone is the irritable, one-word-answer, tired and stress out exam period Christine. Be gone! Hahaha, we’re all cool in our own way. *Winks* Happy.

Since I’ve not caught ANY of the three movies, think I’ll have a lot to catch up on. Hahaha. Do some homework before the exhibition. Think I’ll spend Saturday watching all the vcds/dvds I borrowed from the guys. Looking forward to it already. *Excited*

LOTR just seems so much more fun after playing the game on the PS2. It was real intense. Wave upon wave of Orcs and Ogres. Think… two person playing and the rest of the entire bunk standing/crowding behind. Cheering and hollering whenever danger looms. Hahaha. Me and Ng make a great team. Legolas and Aragorn. Hahaha, the things boys do… Thanks for bringing the PS2!

By the way. I love the fighting knife of Legolas. Looks real sweet…

Worried Sick.

Hurricanes hit Japan. And Sandra’s going there on Saturday. I can’t help worrying.

Usually, I tell myself not to let Sandra’s petite-ness set my worrying into overdrive…. But IT”S HURRICANES THIS TIME FOR PETE”S SAKE!!!!!

*Takes a deep breath and calms down*

See how. San will know what to do. She’s a good kid.

Hello…

Ervin called. And I was like “Ervin who???” hahaha it was PASTOR Ervin. OOPS.

Quite a nice surprise. Chatted for a while. He asked if he could pray for me and my first reaction was “ What? Is this a standard operating procedure or do I look badly in need of some?” Am ashamed to say my guard was up immediately and the only though running through my head was “STOP PROBING!”

It was not until San explained that asking to pray for someone is a way of expressing concern. Plus it helps others to see/understand better what’s on the mind of the “prayee”. Why didn’t I think of that? I mean… I have volunteered on a number of occasion to prayed for a certain friend of mine. Why can’t I see where he was coming from?

Hmmm, why am I so “protective”?

So… insecure.

Have I got things to hide?

But then again, who doesn’t?

Bear and Causeway Point

Had bento with Sandra after church today at Edo. Quite alright. Reasonably priced too. Talked about a lot of stuff. Hee, I really enjoy chatting with her nowadays. Last time it used to be more of nonsensical, lame shit. Now, it gets more “intelligent”. Don’t worry sis! Your secret’s safe with me! *Zips mouth and adds a coat of super glue over it* Hahaha. It’s the same with June too. Been talking to her quite a bit too. Think others will faint if they hear the things we share… SSSSHHHH….

Hahaha why do I hit it off so well with ATTACHED gals? Hahaha. Not good! Not good at all.

Anyway I digressed. Headed to Causeway Point after lunch. Walked around with Mei and Lizhen. Mei kept asking if I’m bored. Asked her why. She said I looked really tired. I guess… I am.

I just felt slow and bushed. Sorry if I ruined your mood for shopping sis! Oh take good care of the tummy ok?

Peace

Friday was the first time in months that I had good, uninterrupted, sound, quality sleep. It’s no news that I’ve been plagued by sleep problems. Anyway, Friday night was good, I actually woke up refreshed. First time in months. Usually, I just feel drained and more tired than before I sleep. It was different on Friday.

But it wasn’t that easy. Had the weirdest of dreams…. Still quite spooky if you asked, even to me.

Dreamt that I was switching off the computer after chatting with Sandra and June. As I walked towards the bedroom, I passed by the study. The door was ajar and someone forgot to switch off the light. So naturally, I headed for the switches and went in….

And I saw myself. At my desk. With my back to me. Writing…

And if that wasn’t freaky enough, I remember what I saw as I peeped over my own shoulder. Word by word, it goes….

To whom it may concern,

Please excuse my absence from life. I do not expect anyone’s sorrow for my death. Maybe relief if anything. I can’t describe what mental illness is. I’ve tried and tried with writing and alcohol and loud music and my only conclusion is Satan has taken over my soul and mind.
Please remove my brain and try to find out what’s wrong. Leave me my heart though for I cannot bear to part with it.
To all my relatives and friends. I’m deeply sorry.
Hahaha I’m not sorry. Hahaha.
Fuck you all to Hell!!!

Mike

It was kinda unsettling seeing yourself penning your very own suicide note. Even more so to wake up the morning after, remembering everything. I remember reaching out to shake myself. And just before I made contact, I got yanked out of the room. Picture horizontal reverse bungee, it felt as though I was jerked out of the room by a huge elastic band. And as I flew out, I could see myself, slumping back in my chair, holding the piece of paper, reading it, with a smug, satisfied smirk.

Unnerving.

This is where I conked out for the night. No more dreams, no more tossing and turning. Pure blissful sleep all the way till morning. A first, in many months… Hmm is this the cathartic effect I learnt abt in lit?

Mad!

I think me Tagboard is going bonkers. Look what happened. Growls. Irritating.

Ugly!

What’s gotten into me last night? Went out for dinner before returning back to camp. Saw something in Lot 1 shopping center. It just caught my eye when I was passing by the shop. It was so “Sandra”, so I got it.

Noticed I used “was”, now I think it’s getting uglier by the min as I look at it. Am embarrassed to pass it to Mei already. *Shakes head*

Blea!

I feel blea. Really I do. But you don’t really care do you?


Picnic!

Hey! Have this great idea. Let’s have a picnic! Esp since papers will be ending soon for most ppl. What do you ppl think? We could all head down to the botanical gardens. I haven’t been there since primary school!

We could have sandwiches from subway, red wine, strawberries, chips, lots of lemonade, fruits, typical teenage junk. I can get some tiramisu too! Hahaha sounds delicious eh?

It’ll be great fun sitting in the sun. Among the greens. Talking abt anything and everything. Listening to music. Catching up with one another. What do you guys think? Ppl from A21, leave a note on the taggy ok? Let me see how’s the response like.

You Push. They Resist. And You End Up Tired From The Fighting.

A new point of view,
A walk in your shoes.
I wish I can get inside your head.
To see what you see,
When you look at me.
Maybe I could have lived your life instead.


I Wrote So Much Today.

Guess what? I left it in camp AGAIN. I swear my memory’s getting from bad to worse. It sucks when your life is crumbling apart due to fatigue. I can’t sleep… Even after running three kilometers today. I bet all the rest are snoring away like pigs already. Cept for me.

I Died A Little Today.

Why? I was getting ready for work after lunch break today when I saw… Michael Learns To Rock on TV. Guess what were they singing? The English version of Jacky Cheung’s Wen Bie. Goodness. I swore I was badly traumatized by it. Correction! I was badly traumatized by it. AND I swore.

It was... utter torment. Totally rubbishy. I was going “Somebody STAB me, PLEASE!” That’s reason enuff to be banished to Hell if you ask me. *Shudders*

First Time

Today in church, I said my very first prayer. I mean I have done it before but never in a church. Hope this makes it more powerful.

Prayed for Sandra and Christine. Prayed that they will have the wisdom to answer their papers. Prayed that they will have the peace of mind to tackle any tough obstacles in front of them. Prayed that they be granted strength, to carry on in their work and to never give up. Prayed that God sustain them in this exam period.

Pinch!

Feeling really crabby now. Why? I just had crabs for dinner. Ok lame. Hahaha. Daddy was sure feeling generous. Love crabs. In fact, love all kinds of shellfish, with or without legs. Hahahaha. But no abalone please… I’ll roll on the floor with stomach cramps. It’s that bad. So… it’ll take a lot of money to poison me. Hahaha.

Zombie.

I have a sleeping problem. Period. Have been avoiding talking abt it till today when the Pastor mentioned it. Told Mei abt it. Hahaha. I dunno. I can’t seem to clear my mind for a peaceful night’s sleep. I can’t even dream! Lest have sound sleep. Now it feels like whenever I close my mind, my head seems to shrink into a lava lamp. Intangible weird stuff rushes through my head. And I wake up every ten minutes. I dunno how much more I can take. Trust me. Night after night of being sucked into a mental kaleidoscope, not remembering anything when you wake. Feeling more drained after going to bed than before. I think I’m going to snap soon. Haven’t slept well in weeks.

I think I’d dying.

I Was Bored…

Think it’s pretty obvious. Guessed what I did yesterday? Well, the night before, I was kinda talking to Mich abt lotsa stuff. Premarital sex, love, feelings etc the works. She kinda mentioned something. Beb said, “Love should be… Simple and sweet.” Hmmm that really stuck and it made me feel kinda uneasy. Couldn’t really sleep. Something within that kinda pricked.

Anyway, was at work when that kinda inspired me to start something. Msged lotsa people asking them to fill in “Love is (Blank)” with the first thing that comes into their mind. And here’s what they said.

Love is… Unpredictable. With no right or wrong. ~Carol~
Love is… The using of one to make both happy ~Francis~
Love is… Painful. ~Shuhui~
Love is… Blind. ~Sandra~
Love is... Life ~Sheila~
Love is… Fish. ~Fel~
Love is… Kind. ~Christine~
Love is… Love. ~Chengmei~ (This answer is funky. Love is love. Period. Attitude Gal!)
Love is… un-definable. ~June~
Love is… So unreal and stupid. It is indescribable. Cause love is how you define it. The love I yearn for may not be the love some people could give. Sometimes, you can’t even describe the love you want. Love is defined by how much you understand yourself. ~Lingzhi~

Yup, those were the answer I got. Noticed it’s all the gals who bothered. Hahaha the guys were like. “You ok? I think you need to ^&%$^*&% -ing go away you GAY!” Hahaha. No lah. Guys are shy. Expected.

Francis’s answer is good. Kinda cool of him, always bother to entertain the little quirks and funny impulsive little crazy ideas of mine. Hahaha. Moomaster rocks! Fel’s answer was totally out of this world. She said fish was the first word to pop into her head. Hahaha fwarny. Din see that coming at all.

Think this is very Quizilla inspired. Heh. Maybe I’ll do something like this again in the future. Feel free if you wanna contribute. The tag board is always underutilized if you asked me.

A Lil Glimpse Of Me.

Alright! Saw this on Lalala’s blog. Thought it looked interesting. So yours truly unceremoniously ripped it for myself. Hope Lalala doesn’t mind… you won’t right? :)


1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
… B. Carry sufficient and serviceable (non-expired) fire extinguishers.

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:
Dad’s speakers. The old wooden huge stand-alone kind.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
Channel Five’s Print to Screen- Moon Princess (I fell asleep)

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
11:29am

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?:
11.29 am (ok I cheated. It’s a reflex already. The word “Time” = Look at watch ASAP.)

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
Voices in my head

7: When did you last step outside? What were you doing?:
Last night. Went to the reservoir… To skip rocks.

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
Porn.


Gotcha. Sheila’s blog.

9: What are you wearing?
Glasses. Some Crap T from Queensway, board shorts (the ugliest kind possible), And of course the standard undies. Plus a permanent goofy grin,

10: Did you dream last night?
Yup, I dreamt I died after eating some stuff my friends sold me. Hate those Multi Level Marketing shit. Damn you all to Hell.

11: When did you last laugh?
This is scary. I’ve been sitting here for 5 mins…. AND I can’t remember.

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
This is the living room. Dust and tacky Chinese New Year décor. Nobody gives a damn…….

13: Seen anything weird lately?:
Yea. This morning when I was looking into the mirror.

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
Cool! Else I won’t take the effort to steal/do it right?

15: What is the last film you saw?:
Passion Of Christ

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
Car, put aside enough for uni. Save everything else. Must at least keep 5 grand for the tickets to Holland and the euthanasia procedure.

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
That’ll will take forever. Cause…I’m complicated and most probably I haven’t found that out abt myself too.

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
Have the EXCLUSIVE right to kill someone and get away with it. Brazenly.

19: Do you like to dance?:
Not really. I have two left feet. BUT alcohol helps.

20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?:
George WHO?

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Nefertina

This is the one that made me do the quiz. *beams*

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Nathan (Nay-than… NOT Nah-than)

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
Sure! But not alone though….

23: Will you pass on this survey?:
Whatever for?!?!? Feel free to rip it though.

Love Is Supposed To Be... Simple And Sweet.


Mich. This line stuck... I hate you. You always put the toughest emmotion into the simplest yet deepest of words....

I Swore… I Saw A Camel Waltzing Down The Corridor

Or maybe it’s the heat getting to me. The weather these days is totally crazy. Can’t remember when was the last time it got so hot. Goodness gracious me. I feel like a piece of flypaper! So wet and sticky! *Runs up to a wall, hurls myself against it and STICKS there* See?!?! Told you I’m feeling sticky.

Exercise. The Military Kind My Dear…

Just got back from an exercise. Was held in Jurong camp. Been in the sun for three days. Kinda cool being baked again. Been so long since I did that. There’s this joy in standing in the blazing son. Having the brazen heat searing into your skin. It feels really raw and alive. It’s like scouring your skin with hot water and a piece of green wool.

Cleansing.

Updated.

Posted new photos on the photo page. Feel free to have a look. The links on the right.

Reminder To Self.

1) Church and “body” count.
2) Mei's and Fel's and Ivy's
3) Love Money Security.

Easter Play

Went to the Easter play at Kallang yesterday. Fel’s church City Harvest organized it. It was really good. Not to mention large scale. Hahaha. William Hung made a special appearance. Okok. Some sort of an appearance. One of Jesus disciples did an impromptu song, Hung style. Complete with cheerleaders. That got the stadium roaring with laughter. The play was excellently done up. And the set was simply marvelous. Looks damn pro and stuff. Plus the music… heard it’s all original work. Impressed and in awe.

Well Pastor Kong’s really charismatic. Which is good because. Despite sleeping for less than two hours the night before, I actually stayed awake throughout. AND enjoyed it. Know what’s freaky? Before the play, I was talking to Fel abt my Humpty Dumpty blog entry. And during the sermon. Pastor Kong talked abt Humpty Dumpty. Mei says it’s divine intervention. Me? I’m just amazed.

Anyway, met some really friendly people from Fel’s cell group. Namely Esther and Shufang. Jieling’s a real babe. Her cell group leader is a really great guy. Uber friendly. Hahaha. Oh! Met Roy Ang there too. He was one of the ushers. Goodness never knew he could look so decent formal. Hahaha shirt and tie! In Red too! You go Ang Gu kuey. Hahahaha Kong Ba Bao (yours truly) said thanks for dropping by.

Dropped by Ric’s place to pick up his car. After that the three of us went to Geylang… For supper. (Whatever were you thinking?!?!?!?) Had Zu zha tang and the famous Tau Huey. It was really good. Hahaha felt real bright though,. Hundred mega watt light bulb. Hahaha. Ric was really nice to sent me back all the way from Geylang. Both of them are Pasir Ris-ians mind you. Felt real bad. Thanks guys. Thanks for inviting me to the play Fel!

Happy Birthday Alan.

Went over to Alan’s on Friday. Alan’s my secondary school cca (npcc) friend. He was the overall coordinator back then. Anyway, felt real good to see the rest of the guys And gals again. Ppl like Shangcai and Alan etc. Heh. Shared a bottle of wine with Zhihong. Hope Alan like it. The rest of them bought him a really lovely watch. Headed to Tiong after that for some chit chat. There’s gonna be a chalet in June. Really looking forward to it.

S- word.

Went to Mei’s church on Sunday. It was quite ok. Such a small world, saw my cousin Dawn there. And I was telling Mei earlier that one of her friend reminds me of Dawn. And the next thing I know, I saw her in front after service. Freaky. Hee.

Anyway. Am feeling really churchy now. Not because of this packed weekend. The feeling… that I had long ago when I made an effort to go on a regular basis is back again. I might… I just might start attending church again. Think I’ll check out CH next week while Sandra checks out her friend’s. *winks winks*

You’re Either With Us or You’re Not.

Hmm. As you people know, I’ve been around a bit this long weekend. Met quite a bit of new ppl. Made some new friends too. Noticed something abt people. What’s with the “Hi I’m from Ntu/Nus” shit? I mean… has it taken over the “Hello, it’s my pleasure to meet you”?

What? You have to establish your sphere of “belonging” before you make friends? I mean it shouldn’t and doesn’t matter does it? Hmmm. It’s beginning to feel like the standard procedure when young adults our age are introducing themselves to others.

I don’t quite get it. But then, I’m still serving in the army. *shrugs*

Hoochimama Sweet God Of Agave.

Uncle just came back from Korea for a visit. Guess what he got me? A bottle of Jose Cuervo! Hubba Hubba!

Vision

I have this vision…. Release “Happy Tree Friends, Bedroom edition”. Brings a whole new meaning to “ Good Sex To Die For.” Hahaha. Think it’ll be a blast.

She Moved.

Lalala moved her bloggy. Updated the link on the right. Feel free to drop by her new home. I think it’s done up excellently. Nice and simple. You go gal!

Somebody’s hiding, drowning in his past. Somebody’s cold borne, she’s giving me chills.

Humpty Dumpty

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall and couldn’t put himself together again because he wasn’t from Ikea. Yups. Cause everything from Ikea can be dismantled and put back together again. Plus they come with simple huge illustrated instructions. A to B. Arms to sockets etc etc. Bet he wouldn’t have such a headache if he’s made in Sweden, Ikea style.

Or maybe he should do some research, take some pointers from stuntmen. Learn how to take falls safely. Read up on how to break falls. “Falling Off Walls For Dumpty Dummies” Maybe then he wouldn’t make such a big mess when he land, make the King and his men work harder for the breakfast you see. I have to peel my own eggs and then scramble them, why should they have the privilege of skipping a step?

He should have known better and take steps to prevent such tragedy too. It might not be so fatal an incident if he took long soaks in the hot tub. What’s the worse that can happen? Drop off a ledge, get bruised cracked, at worst. Just stand straight up, brush himself off a little and off he goes. No huge wet slimy mess. Hey no body’s perfect right? We all have our flaws… what are a few cracks? For the perfectionist, there’s always Maybelline EverFresh Concealer.

Everything wouldn’t have happened if he din climb that high. Picture this, “Humpty Dumpty sat on the… COUCH. And there he lived happily ever after. Amen!” end of story. Zilch injury. No harm done. Of course there’ll be a sequel to it “Episode Two: The Return Of The Couch Potato.” But that’s another story for another time.

And what in the world is up with that name? Wat’s with Humpty? I’m Cranky Mike cause I’m cranky, doing crazy and outrageous things most f the time. Always looney, always cranky. So. Mr. Egg head is… Muahhahaha I leave it to your vivid imagination. Hahaha Eggman can’t wait to get it on.

Bummer!

Put a lot of stuff which I wanted to post down on paper. But guess what? Left the paper in camp. Now trying hard to remember what I wrote. %$@#^#%&

Go Plug Your Nose Elsewhere

I loathe those medicated inhalers that people plug into their nose. To relieve nasal congestion or something. Think they look plain gross. Every time someone talk to me with that precariously hanging out of their nostril, I have this strong overwhelming urge to shove it up their nose. Hey, it’s supposed to relieve blocked nose right? Just helping…

You don’t shove stuff up your arse when you have constipation do you? Think my friend… think.

Funky Uncle

Saw this 40 plus almost hitting 50 dude on the train. Real cool chap. He was dressed in some funky shirts carrying a Crumpler backpack. Clipped to his belt was the Ipod and on his head was the largest pair of headphones ever.

Rawk on dude!

Bored Guys and Clueless Victims

Yesterday was a crawling slow day. As usual, bored ns guys have ways of entertaining themselves. Moomaster and Crankymike started tearing up documents that was to be shredded. Crankymike won (of course).

Following that, as inspired by the movie “Love me if you dare”, Crankymike dared Moomaster to hit an Indian driver over the head five times without the driver flinching or getting mad. (You won’t want ANY drivers mad at yer, the next thing you know, you might be scraping yourself off the road).

Crankymike won again. Conned the driver into a free massage. Rapped him on his back and shoulders before giving him 5 SOLIDS RAPS OVER THE HEAD WITH MY KNUCKLES. What can I say? I’m good.

Next up, we’ll see who manages to contort Gabriel’s face into five different expression… MANUALLY.

Peace.

When Was The Last Time You…

Took a walk in the rain? Feeling the drops hit down on your skin like needles.

Took a walk in rain with her? Holding on to her hand in the down pour. Giving her hand the occasional squeeze. Just to make sure from time to time.

Got bitten by someone? Just for the fun of it.

Climbed/jumped onto someone’s back and covered his eyes? And make him guess who you are?

Danced? Nono. Not the clubbin kind Dear….

Shared a sweet with someone? Look ma! No hands!

Lay down on the grass with someone else lying on ur tummy? Just watching the clouds go by?

Went to the reservoir at night?

Took a stroll in the park at night?

Starved for the whole day only to sit down at night watching movies and having loads of crisps, nachos, hotdogs, popcorn and CHOCOLATE?

Watched a movie? But neither you or her actually cared abt the movie. *Grins*

Hollered and ran around in the mall waving your hands madly all the time?

Stroke behind someone's ear and tell her how beautiful she is?

Hold someone by the hollow of her back and tell her you'll be there always?

Did something crazy?



When was the last time you loved someone? And told her so...

I Think…

I’m dying of a heart failure.

I swear that must be it. Caught “The Passion Of Christ” last night. So nice of Felicia to ask Sandra and me to go along. It’s been a while since I last saw the both of them. Last saw them at my bbq. ANYWAY, I’m kinda disturbed by the film. Nope. Not by the violence. Not by the bloodshed. Not by the gruesome details.

I’m disturbed I’m not in the least affected by it.

Honest.

Mei was pretty disturbed. If you ask me. She kinda missed like 1/3 of the movie. Hahaha. If you know what I mean. So was Andrea. But I just sat there watching everything unfold. The lashing. The lashing WITH bladed whips. The Guards pushing the crown of thorns into His head. The cruxification of Christ. All the squishing of blood and flesh. The forceful dislocation of Jesus shoulder etc etc.

I know I should be touched, or at least digested. But… I just sat there watching everything unfold. Calmly. Somehow…. I just don’t feel a thing. It’s like “Ok. Simon of Cyrene should be coming right abt now” “Oh so she’s the prostitute Christ saved from a public stoning” “Here’s where Christ will leave an imprint o his face after he’s done cleaning his face with the cloth.” “Ok, so here’s where they flay him.” “Here’s where they nail him, two more to go right?”. I mean… I know wat’s happening and why. But somehow.. I’m just indifferent to it.

And it scares me. Went there kinda expecting to be touched. Or at least shocked. Was kinda expecting to tear a lil. But. Zilch. Nil. Nothing. And that scares me. Have I become so unfeeling? Am I the cold blooded one now? What has happened to me? Maybe… I should cut down on my Happy Tree Friends.

I scare myself sometimes.

Bear.

Met bear before the movie. Popped over to Mango for a while. Sis wanted a pair of pants. Heh. Never realized how small Mei is until then. *Shakes head* Had dinner at Gusto. Nice place. Had seafood spaghetti, Bear had white clams spaghetti. Tried a bit of tiramisu too. Divine. Mei said she thought I’ll like it cause it has liquor in it.

Goodness. I think everybody thinks I’m a full-blown alcoholic by now. I’m not ok? I don’t drink that often ok? Just that when I do, I enjoy them tremendously. Period. End of discussion.

Baoz.

Saw Baoz dearest as we went up the escalator. Too bad she din hear us hollering across. Heh. Think it’s the long hair. Blocks out everything. Hahaha.

Note Of Appreciation

Thanks Fel! *Hugz* For asking us along so nice of you. Had a great time. Pity I couldn’t join you after the movie. Must send Mei home you see. Haha. Another time perhaps! THANKS!