Late Night Rumble

Sounds damn suggestive doesn't it?
Sorry to disappoint you people. No sex here. Hahaha Yup, had a long sms session with a friend last night. I dunno, just have a talk I guess. Said some stuff I've always wanted to say and maybe to some extent thrashed things out a bit. But if you ask me, "thrash things out" is kinda extreme, with a negative connatation to it. Basically, we talked. Maybe I said something I might grow to regret in the future, maybe I said something that I shouldn't. But up to now, I'm just glad I said all those thing which I did. Guess knowing that people now better understand how you feel does make the overall scenerio much more endurable. Just hope some of what I said registered, I know she has quite a bit on her hand too.

Wonder how is she doing.

Play Ball

Took a bus which passed by RVHS's field. Never realised how i missed that place, maybe it's the teacher's day spirit or something. Anyway, really wanted to step back into that familiar place, too bad today's Sunday. You know what I really missed about that place? Softball! (you call that ball soft?) Yup, bestest game I ever played. The satisfaction of having the bat connect with the not-so-soft softball, one of the greatest feelings on earth. Sometimes, you can feel it coming, there's a general slo-mo effect and you can actually see it connecting before it actually happens. Freaky but it happened to me twice. Weird but exhilarating .

Miss Yeo

Talking about my downstairs neighbour here. Her name's Shufang, known her since forever. She was my first friend when I shifted into the estate and I was in preschool then. Anyway, one of my bunkmate, Gabriel was from her secondary school and Jc. We were just talking the other day when we realised that she 's a mutual friend. Found out from him that she's a bowler! Oh my! The petite Shufang? A Bowler? Wow, hahaha see... guess I don't know her that well afterall. Been living above her but never seen her around. *shrugs*

Apparently, Gab feels that she's a very Dao person. Hmmm I've always known her as a quiet and shy gal but Dao? Hmmmm..

Bye Bye Dough

*stomps into the room*
Guess what? I just got back from the police station. I've finally decided to punch the old lady living downstairs. Naturally she wasn't quite happy abt it.

Got you there for a moment din I? *grins*

Hey, it's a saturday afternoon and I'm stuck at home. You can't really blame me? Hahaha it's a joke. But I did went to the police station. Went there to file a report, I lost a military pass this morning. Yup, It was issued to me yesterday, BARELY twenty four hours ago. Haiz, guessed it unclipped itself from my uniform this morning in the crowded train. Dang! I'll have to pay a penalty of FIFTY bucks! Sigh.... Fifty good dollars, could use it somewhere constructive man. Like for cds, a good meal outside etc. Life's a bitch man.

Stood up...

Haiz... Why does this have to happen to me? I'm so unlucky this week! First, was supposed to have dinner at Causeway point with Junhui (my jjc og mate), she din turned up. And, she switched off her blardy telephone! Hey! The idea of carrying a mobile is to BE CONTACTABLE you know. *irritated*

Hey, I'm alright with waiting. Especially for gals (once waited for 5hr 45min for someone) and especially if ultimately you do turn up! But not if I'm gonna wait there for 45 mins without any trace of you! Argh!!!

I'm Fine

To all the people who expressed their concern, I'm very grateful to you all. I'm fine now. Not entirely ok but definitely much better. Guess everything sorta got tamed and quelled inside, it's no longer boiling over , just simmering away peacefully. Guess something I saw on a website helped me feel better. Here it is,

"Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours."

You know, that really made me felt better. Really! I don't mean it in a sarcastic way. It made me realise that sometimes in life, there are some issues whereby you can do nothing about them. You'll just have to let them be. trust me, it's not easy.

I know.

Hmmm... So You're Saying You Just Let It Go And Give Up?

A dear friend wrote,
"How can you accept to be ín a relationship which you know might have no possibility? I mean it's just like an eventual breakup waiting to happen.. How can anyone want to have something like that. I mean dont you think it's not fair? Not fair to the other person, not fair to ourselves. Somehow we just shortchange both parties."

Hey, nothing's definite in this world sweetie. Especially when it comes to relationships, Ever heard of working toward a happy ending? Or try making it work? You can never tell for sure what's going to happen. Sure, sometimes speculations and projection into one's future have to be made, we all need some planning in our life but by worrying and running away from something that might not even happen? Isn't that teetering on hysteria and paranoia? It might seems to be a big issue now, but when it actually happens down the road, might not be so un-manageable you know. Differences can be work out, compromises can be made. Tolerance will smooth things over. These will come naturally in a serious relationship. Picking the least troublesome route is pure "escape-ism". There can never be smooth sailings relationships. If you get into one thinking that it will be an easier ride compared to others, it only mean that you're more likely to run away when things actually happen. And things always happen. Have faith, in yourself and others, things never work out especially if you already think they won't in the first place. It's the working together that seals a relationship, do you really want to settle for something custom made and foolproof? Wouldn't it be mechanical then?

I hope you see this.

To Someone Precious

Come what may, sad, happy, big or small
Be it trials, tribulations, joy or fear
Never fret and never panic. At the end of it all
Rest easy knowing I’ll be here

Full Of Crap
The content below is purely fictional.

Emcee: And now, The Arts Pageant swimwear segment!

Spectator A: I’ve never really undesrtood this section. Like in most pageants, winners of the Arts pageant are like goodwill ambassadors… Valued more for personality than looks!
So what relevance has their baring of flesh to their ability to represent the student body?

Spectator B: I guess it’s a literal representation of the student body. What’s your problem with that?

Centro!

Yup! I went to a club! It's my first trip to one. Quite an embarrassment right? I'm twenty and it was my "virgin" trip. Anyway Friday night was fun... initially. Hahaha, Went with Honky and guess who we met there? Sergeant Chang! Nice to see a familar face.

Oh! why was I there? It's the Nus Arts Faculty bash cum pageant. Sheila dearest took part! Hahaha, yup. That's why... Have to go support her man! She's my brother/sister (I'm a little confused here) after all. Hahaha man she looked good! Almost edible! *smacks lips* If you asked me, she should have won the pageant! Yup, She looked great in her black numbers, the last one look familar... Shimmering black dress... Hmm where have I seen it? Hmmmm Haha, Jack bought it for her. *grins*

You know, it felt different seeing her all dressed up last night. I mean, it's the first time I've seen her in a dress, make-up, heels and all. She stirred something in me. I've always seen her as a close buddy, (think beach bums in beach wear) and it's so... new, to see her like that. Perhaps it's because I've always seen her in a less feminine light (or less than feminine light) so I was naturally awed/stunned to see her so beautiful. Oh and the swimwear segment! She was hot! Any hotter and I would need a cold shower! Haha. I have no idea why she lost out. She looks.... So Sexy... Think it's the caucasian factor, Singapore stilll ain't ready for them I guess. The other contestants? Well the guys.... They're ok I guess. Duh, my eyes were on the gals! Haha M1 was rather... fagotty. Hahaha Trust me, that was the general feeling on the floor.

F1 looks a bit like Eugene's (Tragic) ex- Lijun. And both of them plays basketball! Hahaha, F1 was way less tan though. F2? Well, she looks a bit like Amy Cheng. Her bikini? Let's just say flora print clashes with the idea of a pageant in Centro. F3? F3 was crap! *Ducks the hail of household items* Hahahahaha F3 was Sheila! *wolf whistles* Hmmm she was the best if you asked me, and the jazzy item she sang? (Fever by Peggy Lee) It matched her dress to a T. F4? She made the whole pageant looked rigged. Yup, So many Supporters! Sounds like even her distant relatives came down. *shakes head* Typical XY look if you ask me!

After the pageant, went looking for Sheila. The place was packed! Quite a shock! Honky decided to go home at this point in time, leaving me there alone like an idiot. Sheila was busy entertaining her friends, so we din really talked. But if you asked me, somrthing din felt right. We were too quiet, even though she's busy. Things felt a little awkward and strained. I have no idea why, just felt real out of place and uneasy. I've noticed recntly, there's something between us. It feels not as comfortable talking to her in person. Nono, not in the "I-Loathe-Your-Guts" way. Rather, it's the " Hmmmm-why-are-we-having-these-weird-awkward-moments-of-silence-that-we-never-used-to-have-before" kind of uneasiness. The funny thing was I din want to leave despite that. Just sat there, pretending to chill out, I dunno.... just wanted to stay with her till as late as I can I guess. Talked to Chang for a bit though, other than that? Was pretty much alone most of the time, and when she's around, din talk to her either. In retrospect, it felt really weird.

What's happening man?

Blood

Had one fucking hell weird of a dream that day.

Began with me seeing myself smashing the hell out of someone, I was just there clobbering him with my fists. Fists until fists I drove into his face until I felt his nose crumble. He collapsed and I just got on top of him, pulled his head up by the hair and slamming it back down against the dirt. Again and again and AGAIN! Blood was spurting everywhere and his nose was turining into a jellied mess. All this while, I was screaming, shrieking even at times, some THING got loose within me. I couldn't stop.

I didn't want to.

Funky

Saw this on someone's t shirt over the week end; "Smile, and the whole world smile with you. Fart, and you stand alone."
Corny eh? *grins*

The League

Caught the movie at Bugis with Ming yesterday. It was rather cool, the way they intertwined different literary characters. But you really need some knowledge with regards to the characters to enjoy the show better. Quartermain's remarks were typically english, succint and curt. There was one part that was so unbearably lame that I made a loud " Sheesh!" in the theater.

M was leading Quartermain down some flights of stairs into the basement and Quartermain was asking him where they were heading. Australia? (down under.... DUH!!!) Sheesh! Really! But rather clever I must say.

And to those who have read "The picture of Dorian Gray" by Oscar Wilde, they can really appreciate him saying "I'm complicated..." in the movie. That's typical Gray- aloof, uninterested and uncaring.

Overall, the movie is rather thrilling, the effects are nice though the story line is a little threadbare. Don't catch it on a weekend if you're hard up. Ain't worth the eight bucks. Catch it on a weekday when it's cheaper.

Liqin

Met Liqin on the train to Bugis. As usual, another friend of mine who couldn't recognise me. Hmm have I really changed so much?

Oops... She Did it Again

Initially, I made plans with a friend to catch "The League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen" tomorrow, yup, but she kinda cancelled on me, AGAIN. But nobody's at fault. She said she made plans with someone else earlier and it slipped her mind. *Shrugs* Fair enough, nobody's at fault. Can't /won't blame anyone. Just very disappointed here. It's not the first time this happened.

Hooray For Ming!

Guess what? All's not lost! Ming agreed to try to make it for the movie tomorrow. Yup, she agreed to catch it with me since the other friend couldn't make it! Yay! Hahaha it's either tomorrow or on Tuesday, she needs to check her schedule first. Hahaha been a while since I last saw her. Hmmm...

Hello World
Wow, another week has passed uneventfully. Haha, took off this coming Monday so I have a longer weekend! Yay!

Hmmm... So Sad!

Just found out that Christine terminated her blog. Bet it must have been a harsh decision, imagine having to throttle your own baby. Yup, then again I have heard of some of the unhappy incidents that happened because too many people read it and some happened to be pranksters. Maybe her decision will be for the better, a new start is always a good thing. Will miss her works though, they can be so insightful at times.

I Want Someone To Lecture Me

Now.... Not you! Don't you dare start. Hahaha crazy title huh? Well, guess what inspired this entry? I was on my way bach home yesterday when I saw a couple at the Choa Chu Kang Mrt Station. Well they were just sitting on a ledge and the guy was twiddling his thumb and looking at the floor while the gal was... scolding him? She wasn't exactly yelling at him or making a din. In fact, i couldn't hear wat they were saying at all. She was just telling him off for something he did I'm sure.

Well, there's something in that exact moment that struck me. May be it's their expression, his of utter remorse and hers of extreme disappointment. You can almost feel how sorry the guy is for letting her down and how the gal is being so very patient and not putting him down , no matter how hurt she feels inside. Suddenly, I wanted someone to nag at me and scold me too. For when they do, it seems like a tangible form of concern and that even though we find them irritating, we're glad deep down knowing that people are watching out for you. I dunno, that scene was heartwarming in a way. Hopefully, I'll remember that when my baby (I don't have one presently) scolds me in the future, she is probably feeling as bad as I am. And that her ticking me off is a gesture of love and concern, remember Mike, don't let it turn into a scream fest, you always do when people yell at you.....

Wow, Check This Out!

"I consider myself a very sexual person, with lots of love to give... Whichever sex it may to be." -Angelina Jolie-

Cool huh? Something very sexy that comes from someone.... very sexy. Nothing less.
In a way, I can relate to that statement very well. I mean, there are so many people out there that are special to me and I dare say I care for them in a selfless way. Similarly, I can care for many people at the same time. Yup, that's me! And some people just don't understand it and then they tease me about it. You know, about how I can't seem to settle down and that I like so many gals at once? Well, I still don't think it's wrong. I believe you can care for and love someone in the pure innocent and genuine manner. What think you? Drop your opinions on the board won't yer?

Has It Come To This?

Hello peeps! *waves* I'm back! Haha. Hey, I think i'm losing my friends. Just take something that happened few days ago for example, i called Yifang and guess what? I HAVE NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT WITH HER! Do you know wat that implies? I mean, people out there who know us know how crappy and full of shit the both of us are! We used to go on and on forever, talking about anything and everything under the sun. Now? It's gotten to a stage whereby we call (or rather i call) each other and there's moments of long awkward silence. Hmmm Seems like we're drifting quite rapidly. Oh my.

Then again, can't be avoided can it? I mean it's bound to happen to most NS guys, we'll probably be stuck in some godforsaken part of Singapore while the rest are continuing with their life. Just take the blogs of Sam and Miss Chew for example, suddenly, there's so many new names in their life and as a friend/classmate, I've never felt so out of sync before. I'm not lamenting (then again I am ain't I?), i mean NS has some pros too, i found myself being more systematic when it comes to doing stuff and becoming more responsible generally. But i think it can get rather challenging, especially when it comes o relationships with people. Kinda test your limits at times.

Guess what my bro, Sheila said is true.... Some people do need your physical presence and proximity in their life before you can continue to be part of their life. Speaking of her, she's special. A friend i can meet up with when I have problems, and we can just sit there for hours, not saying a word. Just enjoying each other's presence and then at the end of the day, walk away feeling much better all the same. Love her.

Dinner With My Dearest Sister Bear

Yup, It was Sandra's birthday not too long ago. We went to The Esplanade for dinner. Initially, the plan was to have thai, but japanese proved to be rather attractive too *chuckles*
Yup, so the four of us (bear, me ,joyce and aaron) had jap for dinner. Lovely place, great view with ok ambience. Would have been better if the waiters and waitresses kept the clanging and BREAKING of utensils and cutlerys to a minimal. Hahaha
Oh! Guess who did we run into? Mr and Mrs Smith! Yup, they were on their way to an SSO concert. Hahah found out from them that there are more lit students this year and even Miss D has to teach PC. Wow. Must be tough on them.
Ok I digressed, forgive me won't you? Yup, so after dinner we went to Harry's for a drink. Hahaha lesson learnt, DO NOT sit beside the sub woofer. We can't hear each other over the bass. Felt like t rex was coming if you know wat i mean. Kenneth popped in at Harry's. Him and Aaron? *shakes head* Why do they have to make a big fuss over a bottled drink? The poor lady was having such a tough time promoting the drink already and you two have to make her wait there like an idiot. Brudda brudda, Wat's so tough about answering a "Would you like to try this?" question, the poor lady doesn't want to know if you're buying it home, having it there or whether you are driving later. Sheesh, juvenile man, indecisiveness! Tsk Tsk! To the wonderful lady, i apologize on their behalf. They aren't let out very often you see.. *Grins*

Hahaha i got a toy for San again. It's real cute, a solar powered desk ornaments that nods slowly. It cheered me up when i saw it, hope it does the same to San whenever she's feeling down. Noticed how i always end up buying toys for her. Apparently, Auntie noticed too (sandra told me), can't help it. Whenever i see something cute and adorable, there's this impulse to get it for her. Talk abt impulse buying! Hahaha ok, i will TRY getting other stuff for her in the future. Oh! By the way, Thank your dad for helping me get the vodka. Love yer!

Guess Who?

Yup, so we had our drink, (note the singular form) and took a short walk along the water front. Mei mei wasn't drunk, but she sure was high. Hahaha blabbling uncontrollably already. Anyway, Aaron offered me a ride home which i turned down. Decided to take the train. Had something to think abt, anyway i digressed. So i took the escalator down and the train was there already. Guess who i saw? JIAHUI!!!!!! hahaha She's a dear friend from RVHS, Npcc. Yup. She was head of the admin branch and i worked with her for four years! *Shouts excitedly* Hahaha i miss the good ole days man, so it was such a good thing to see her. Man we've grown so much but she's still one head shorter! hahaha She's so going to kill me for this remark! hahaha All the ways we managed to get on her nerves in secondary school: "Yo jiahui! how's the air down there?", "Hey man, When it rains, You'lll be the last one to know.". But trust me, she's a fiesty one. Hahah

So happy to talk to her again. And What's this thing abt not recognising me? And about me changing a lot? Jiahui and her ex (who happens to be in my camp, it's a small world!) both made this remark. Hmmmmmm

Work Sucks

Went to the gym the other day, was looking forward to the evening out with the guys later. Was planning to play pool and have a few rounds of drinks (Hence the gym, don't want the extra calories). Just when i tot the day was going to end as usual, my officer came in and told me I screwed up some work. When I asked him what did i do wrong, he just mentioned crytically that my ic will let me know tomorrow, WTF!!!! Man, he's such a prick! Useless! Only knows how to spoil people's day. Can't you let me know? If you don't intend to tell me, why do this? Left me hanging for the whole night.
Anyway, I found out the next day that it wasn't really my fault. Apparently it was a carry forward mistake. You know, the kind where your predecessors screwed up, and they only uncover it when you took over? Yup, so i was screwed for...... no reasons at all.
Oh well. Life's a bitch *shrugs*

The Wedding Banquet

Guess what?!?!?! I'm most probably going to catch this musical! Yup, someone agreed to catch it with me. So now all i have to do is find a suitable time slot for both of us and book the tickets! *excited* Yay!

Lara Oh Lara

Yup, caught Tomb Raider, the cradle of life on friday with Chengmei. Well, let's just say that Lady Croft doesn't dissappoint. Hahaha, Angelina Jolie is so sexy! Sexiness just oozes out of her, think it's them lips. Full bodied, thick and luscious, makes you wanna have a go at it. And the way she portrayed Lara, wooo.... There's a scene where she was horse riding and having a little target practice, you must see the aloof-ness she portrayed, the clothings, the posture(she was sitting across the saddle). Hahaha perfect example of the "devil may care" attitude.
Her one liners are excellent too! British wry humour combined with sexual innuendo. Hahaha simply delectable.
Hot babe with big guns, what more can a guy ask for? *mike's eyes glazed over*